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Friday, January 13, 2012

This is Home

I have been thinking about the concept of home lately.... and I have come to some pretty awesome, but almost scary realizations. Looking back through old journals, I saw a theme developing.

Day 1 – “I have no fears, no worries, and no concerns with the trip this time around”, “I felt like I was coming home when I got off the plane...”
Day 2 -- “Amidst all the chaos, destruction, and poverty of these two worlds that are so very different than my own, I see beauty, hope, happiness, and love more than anything else.”
Day 3 --“Although I have been here before and other third world countries, this trip is starting to feel different than my others...I personally prefer to leave myself, my world, my technology behind me... I'm here to immerse myself in the local culture and live as the locals do.... I guess easily adapting to this culture is just an affirmation of my calling into medical missions.”
Day 5-- “After words we moved on to San Jose Succotz. The feeling I felt can be summed up in three words... “Home Sweet Home”. There is a special place in my heart for Succotz and the people who call this place home. Don't really know to explain it really, but I can see myself coming back after I finish nursing school and living here for a while.
Day 9-- “I walked back from the clinic by myself, just needed some alone time to reflect. During the walk back I kept thinking, this is nice. It felt like I was walking through my own neighborhood. Nothing felt out of place or made me feel like I didn't fit in... except maybe my blond hair and blue eyes. Looking around at the breath-taking scenery, I can see this being home someday. I wonder where I would live, imagine the wonderful new church family and the powerful services at the Succotz Church of the Nazarene, who my friends will be and the people God will bring into my life, and how wonderful it will be to work alongside Nurse Margaret....Ah, I can live with that.”

It is no secret, especially to those on the trip that I am probably driving nuts with the subject, that there is a special place in my heart for Belize, specifically San Jose Succotz. My first visit here, completely changed my outlook on life, nursing, my calling into nursing, and how to use it as a ministry.
A few years back, I was introduced to the Pray of Jabez and began to say that prayer over and over, every day. “Oh Lord, that You would bless me indeed, enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain.” Well God has certainly heard my prayers and enlarged my territory with my calling into medical missions and now the calling that I am feeling to relocate to Belize.... I look forward to seeing where His is going to lead me as I continue in this journey of life and find my way home.

And now after all
My searching
After all my questions
I'm gonna call it home
I got a brand new mindset
I can finally see
The sunset
I'm gonna call it home

“This is home” - Switchfoot

1 comment:

  1. Kendra, I'm so happy that you got to come back to Belize for a longer time than we had before in spring. I enjoyed reading your blog and share the same feelings. I only wish I had gotten to stay longer to enjoy it more with you! Ginny